Excerpts

Posted: March 9, 2018 in Uncategorized

“Adam, you were the one who thought I should get LO tattooed on my right knee, and VE on the left one. Just so you could make jokes about ‘spreading the love’. You’ve never actually grown up Adam, and I’m tired of waiting for that to happen.” Janet said.

“Oh, come on now! You used to laugh a lot at my ideas, and it was all for fun anyways Hon. How come, all of the sudden, you’re Mary Poppins?” He asked.

“Jesus Adam, even that question is juvenile. Look, I’m 28 years old, and you’re 31 for God’s sake. It just seems like it’s time we behaved more like adults, and you started acting like someone who actually loves and respects me.”

“Damn, you’re insatiable. I just loved you last night, and you already want more?”

“Fuck off Adam, that might be the last ‘loving’ you get from me if you don’t take this seriously!” Janet shouted.

“What the fuck? What’s up your ass now? Are we back to you not liking my jokes, or the way I dress, or how much pot I smoke? What is it now Miss High and Mighty? Because I’ll tell you something, I’m getting kind of tired of this same old argument. Are you on the rag again? Fuck, I should go camping once a month while you’re on the cotton-pony.”

“Have you lost your fucking mind? Are you such a moron that you think saying that kind of shit is going to do anything but piss me off even more? I don’t have to be hormonal to see that you’re a misogynistic asshole, and one that’s probably never going to change either. I don’t know why I’ve been kidding myself for these past couple of years Adam, you’re not worth the stress. All you’re ever going to be interested in about a woman is her body, and I just can’t subject myself to that Neanderthal thinking anymore.”

Adam stood up and moved aggressively towards Janet, raising his right fist. She quickly dropped to her knees and leveled an uppercut to his groin. As he folded forward in pain, she stood and raised a knee into his face. Adam collapsed onto the floor, bleeding hard from the nose.

“Stay there Adam, it’ll only take me about two minutes to pack my bag and get the hell out of here. Oh, I have an idea, why don’t you call the cops on me? Tell them your girlfriend kicked your ass and walked out, I bet they’d get a kick out of that.” Janet said. Then she turned on a heel and headed to the bedroom to gather her things. There was something calling her out there, and it was far from where she was now.

A Close Call

Posted: January 2, 2018 in Uncategorized

#1. The Rider

It was one of the closest calls he’d been involved with in his many years of riding, quite nearly a very tragic day. Rounding the sweeping curve at the end of 29th street, just where the freeway off-ramp intersects, a car just missed him as it exited at full speed. He’d seen this before, and was always cautious at that curve since it seemed that the cars getting off of the highway were determined to keep going 65 mph. The posted limit on the frontage road was actually 35, but at 6:00 am, few drivers seemed worried about getting stopped for speeding. Most would not only take the exit at full speed, but would often cross over the three lanes to make the first right turn, about two blocks up. James watched for all of this as he rounded the city street that paralleled the freeway. He knew very well the cost of getting hit by a car when you’re on a motorcycle. There’s just no ‘fender-benders’ between cars and bikes. The rider is almost always who suffers the brunt of the injuries and damages.

This morning, as James leaned into the sweeping right turn, he glanced over his left shoulder to check for merging cars, but couldn’t see the one with no headlights. Had they turned them off too early? Or, just forget to have them on at all? James heard the screech of tires before he saw the car, he squeezed his brake lever and leaned as hard as he could. After a wobble or two, he recovered just in time to see the car’s driver give him the one-finger salute. He gave a brief thought to chasing the idiot, but decided he needed to pull over and take a few deep breaths instead. Close calls have a way of releasing every ounce of adrenaline in your body, all at once. It’s a dizzying feeling that needs a few minutes of calm to make go away. He did remember hearing another car honk it’s horn just as he hit his brakes – James hoped they were honking at the careless driver, and not him.

It’s a sobering feeling to know you’d just missed either dying, or at least being horribly injured in such an unnecessary situation. James removed his helmet and took long drags of the crisp morning air. He felt very lucky to be rolling in to work all in one piece today, as if someone was watching out for him.

 

#2. The Witness

Christy’s exit was approaching  quickly, and she was still in the wrong lane to make the off-ramp. One of those aggressive types was blocking her merge into the right lane, even though she’d been signaling for over a half mile now. She pumped her brakes enough to be able to slip in behind Mr. In-A–Hurry, just in time to make the exit at the last second. She slowed her Jetta quickly on the downhill ramp, because at the bottom it intersected with 29th street and its slower residential speed limit. She noticed that the aggressive guy was still moving at a high speed, which was unsurprising, but still super dangerous she thought. The drivers on the street she was going to merge with were coming around a long curve, and most at about 35 mph. The Mercedes in front of her got to the merge point and started moving over two lanes to his right, seemingly without even looking for other traffic. That’s when it happened. He smashed into a guy on a motorcycle who was rounding the curve, just as the Benz crossed lanes at full speed. Christy could hear the impact immediately, and saw the rider fly up over the Mercedes’ hood. The red motorcycle slid and spun on the asphalt until it hit a curb, then it flipped and landed on the lawn of home next to the street. She pulled over as soon as she could, got out and ran back to see if the rider needed help. In her 15 plus years in the Mid-Town ER, Christy had seen many motorcycle accident victims brought into her trauma center. Very few of the cases turned out well for the cyclists. As she approached the helmeted figure in the street, she could already see that his legs were in positions that nature had never intended. The driver of the Mercedes had pulled over as well, and she was surprised to see him looking straight at her.

“I didn’t see him! He just came outta nowhere!” He said quietly, almost as much to himself as to her.

She knelt down next to the fallen rider, as other drivers attempted to slow and divert traffic around them. Christy felt for a pulse at the neck, but couldn’t find one. She slid her fingers along the back of his hairline, and there she felt the protruding vertebrae of a broken neck. He was gone.

 

 

#3. The Observers

“This is going to be a very precise interplay of events, you’d better focus as clearly as you possibly can. The moment of separation will be very brief.” The mentor said.

“I shall, I won’t let you down.” Hecta said.

“It’s not letting me, or anyone else down that I am concerned with. I’m concerned with having this transition be successful for all parties involved. The young rider has many more life lessons to go on to, we cannot have him end here prematurely.”

“Yes Gian, I will concentrate and catch him just at the precise moment of contact. He will not know more than a brush with death in his timeline.”

“Very well. The death timeline is for the other souls involved here, most importantly the driver. He has had a long time to make adjustments to his temperament, but has yet to make a single change. I am sorry it’s come to this, but some need a direct and drastic event to bring about self-change.” Gian said.

“I am curious about one thing, Gian… the rider, does he not have fault in this as well?”

“Observe him in his new timeline Hecta, I think you will see that he is a cautious man who does not express his ego through his vehicle. I also sense a strong likelihood that he soon will choose to stop riding such vehicles. He has a very realistic view of mortality, I’ve seen to that over his lifetime.” Gian said.

“It’s beginning, I must focus now.” Hecta said.

The two observers saw the scene begin to play out. The rider leans into the sweeping right turn, just as the Mercedes exits the freeway at high speed. At the moment the car body begins to make contact with the rider, a flash of light, and now there are two scenes. The first one sees the rider lean harder and brake to a stop at the curb, as the car speeds on. In the second scene, the car makes contact with the rider, and sends him airborne to his death.

“Very good Hecta, that was quite perfect. Please monitor your driver to ensure that he has started down a proper path of self-discovery. I shall continue on with James in his new timeline.”

They’ve Been Here

Posted: December 31, 2017 in Uncategorized

Thoughts on Alien visitations to this humble planet

I suppose I take a somewhat scientific approach when asked if I believe in aliens having been here; either directly/physically here, or just passing by for a look. The question makes me think about how, ideally, we humans might approach a planet that we’d detected intelligent life on. (generously assuming that our alien friends deem us intelligent)

I believe that we would have a multi-stage plan of study, well before we ever got to the actual contact part of things. It seems wise to gather as much scientific information as we possibly can before we ever would make the decision to reveal our own presence to that newly discovered populace. Starting with basic chemistry and biology, learning about their planet, their physiology, the natural environment they live in, their foods, rituals, religions, and everything else cultural that we could study.

So many questions would have to be answered before we could even consider making contact with them. What if we found out that they believed they were the only beings in the universe, and that tenet was a strong part of their shared religious belief system? Simply by revealing ourselves we would send their populace into a state of panic with such a dramatic paradigm shift from what was once a concrete belief. Further, what if, at the very beginning of our studies, we discover their atmosphere is toxic to us? Or, the biology of the flora & fauna of their planet is intolerable to human philology? Would we call-off the study? No, I think we wouldn’t go that far, but it might weigh heavily on our decision to ever make contact with them.

Even culturally, if their social mores and folkways were quite different than ours, it could take a great deal of study to understand them enough to even design an approach strategy. I think back to stories I’d read of the first Western Europeans trying to deal with the Native American tribes back in the 1500’s. The newcomers were so used to a hierarchical system of leaders, they could not deal with the natives always sending different representatives to negotiate. The settlers were always looking to speak to the person ‘in charge’ – the Chief (some still debate that we Westerners invented that moniker for whomever was deemed to be the leader of a tribe, but many groups were quite consensus-based, and led by a large group of experienced elders – any of whom were able to speak for the entire tribe)

We certainly wouldn’t want to repeat those same mistakes, so many centuries gone by, would we? Yet, even after long periods of careful study, I think there would still be heated and rightful debates on whether to make actual contact with another alien race. So much to consider before a good rational decision could be reached, it might take decades to come to a proper conclusion.

Now, applying all of that to the considerations of aliens making contact with us, I’d be comfortable in saying that they’re not just going to land in your front yard, step out of their ship and greet you with a warm handshake. It seems far more likely that they would do much as I’ve outlined above…  long and careful studies of this very odd and complicated species of beings. How long would it take them to realize that we didn’t even all speak a common language? Have you ever read a science-fiction novel where the aliens of a planet speak several different languages among themselves? Or, have well defined racial, cultural and political divisions all over their planet?

Even if our alien observers were twice our intelligence, I think it would take a very long time for them to even begin to say that they understood humans well enough to approach them in-person. In fact, I think the better they understood us, the less likely they would be to choose to reveal themselves to us, at this stage of our global evolution anyway. They would presumably already understand what a cultural shock wave they would be unleashing on all of us were they to do so. Add to that, the political maneuverings, greed-based power seeking, and otherwise darker side of man coming out… well, you get my drift. The smarter they are, the more they would know about how the planet Earth would react to their presence. Sadly, even now, we’re all just about two steps outside that cave our ancestors first lived in.

I’m Listening…

Posted: March 28, 2017 in Short Stories

“For years we’ve tried the direct approach, mailings, census’ and surveys, but always with limited overall success. Sure, you can  ask someone what they think about a specific topic, but if they sense you’re connected to whatever, or whomever is asking, they change their answers to please you. It’s some psychological bullshit we humans just do unconsciously, we’re generally not even aware of it. Answers like that are useless to what we’re really after Sam, we need the unvarnished truth in order to keep a finger on the pulse of this country.

You’ve got to make the people want to give up their privacy Sam. I knew it as soon as I saw that Faces website. I mean, damn it, here was a place where people were not only voluntarily registering their basic personal information, but then, of their own volition they were opening up their entire lives. I know most still think it was only open to their little circle of friends, or family, but that’s actually the best part. They really and truly believe that, to this very day despite what the press tells them. It’s like they’re imagining some little privacy dome that surrounds their daily rantings so no one else sees it but the people they’re friends with.
I couldn’t have dreamed up a better idea myself, and I’ve had some damned sneaky ones too. An international website where people post their innermost thoughts and opinions every goddamned day. Sure, we have to do some sorting through their inane photos of every fucking food item they guzzle down at mealtime, but it’s a small price to pay to get a sideline seat to everything else. Every affair, whether real or imagined; every purchase they make, every opinion they have about almost everything, and so much more.

It’s like being the priest in a confessional of the entire global population! Confession is good for the soul, and it’s also damned good for your government too!
And the money to be made, don’t even get me started about that. We can compile custom data reports to satisfy almost any need. Television advertisers chomp at the bit for our latest data. They comb through our reports like they’re panning for gold, and in some ways they really are. Why they can adjust their spending by only buying ad time at the most desirable moments. Haven’t you noticed that no one is buying ad time during the nightly news anymore? That’s because of us, and the data we provide. Some other examples are; you’ll always see reruns during any holiday period, or when there’s some other programming that is a known dominant – such as the basketball finals, or big bowl games. Networks don’t want to ‘waste’ their new product, and the higher ad money they bring in, running against something that will beat them in the ratings.
We can offer them statistical proof of exactly when they will get the most for their money. From the big networks to the upcoming cable channels, we can give them the value-added for their advertising dollar.
Another great feature we discovered is that we have an easy way to test new ideas now. We simply float a ‘news leak’ about whatever it is we’re looking to test, and within hours we’ve got useful data! I figure as long as we keep the NSA as the primary boogey-men for folks to worry about, we’ll stay nearly invisible to everyone.”

Herstory 

Posted: December 23, 2016 in Uncategorized

“I don’t feel safe anywhere Jack, and I haven’t for over 12 years. Christ, it took me over six months to trust that you weren’t just some guy trying to take something from me.” She said.
“Look, I’m not going to say anything even close to ‘I understand’ – because I don’t, yet. I really want you to help me understand it though, if it’s not too hard to go into.” Jack said, carefully.

She sensed the absolute sincerity in his voice as he said it.

“No, I guess you wouldn’t really understand it, would you? Not in the same way a woman does anyway.” She says, voice trailing off into thought.
“I’m sure a few men might, but I’m not one of them. I really want to though, I want to know what you went through, and are still going through now too.” Jack Says.

“Something was taken away from me twelve years ago.” Janet begins. “Something that feels like I’ll never get back, ever. Even just a decade ago, there were people who would say things like ‘he didn’t take away the important part of you’ or ‘don’t let this change who you are inside’ – and those were people who knew me, and were trying to comfort me. People who cared about me didn’t even know what it was like Jack, and I’ve got to admit, I wasn’t in the mood to try and tell them either. Not then anyway, not so soon after. Shit, it probably took me two years to really come to terms with all of the changes brought on by that one single night.  Two years of therapy, of self-analysis and internal inventorying before I could admit to all of the changes. Can you imagine that?” She asked him.

“Well, imagine it is about all I can do. That’s why I want to hear it from you, I don’t want to have to keep guessing at it. I don’t really like feeling wrong all the time, and that’s how this feels.” He says.

“Yeah, that’s my fault to a degree. I want to stay up in my protected fort and hurl snowballs down at you for not being able to get in. It’s so automatic to me now, I’m not always aware of when I’m doing that. But that’s just part of it Jack, just part of what gets changed in you after being raped – there’s so much more to it. Trust, the loss if it, is just the most obvious one, and maybe the longest lasting too.”

“Let me start back then, just before everything happened. I was like any other nineteen-year-old college student, away at a new school, in a new town. I got involved in campus activities, I worked at the bookstore, and had a new group of friends who were totally cool. I was exploring my new adult life like it was an attraction at an amusement park. Everything was fun, or cool, or sophisticated, and I wanted to be part of it all. I was so happy, so filled with enthusiasm, and so painfully naïve too. I quite literally trusted everyone around me, and why wouldn’t I? It wasn’t like the school published a list of creepy predators in the campus paper. They wanted us to all believe that we were in a special and highly insulated environment there, and I bought into it.”

Jack could see this was getting painful for her, so he chose to remain quiet, foregoing even the usual noises of acknowledgement one uses in a conversation.

“My roommates had told me about the part that night, not far off campus at a frat-house. The guys there were cool, they said. Other parties they’d been to were supposedly great, so ‘why not?’ I thought, let’s go. In all honesty the three of us had a couple of drinks while we got ready, so I was about half-buzzed by the time we headed over there. I’d guess there were about 75 to 100 people there, but it wasn’t over crowded because it was kind of a huge place. We found some other girls we knew by the kitchen area, and I knew I needed to eat something before I drank anymore. But, just like most parties thrown by guys, their idea of food was chips and gross dips. By the time I decided which chips were the least disgusting, someone had already put a drink in my hand. We were talking, snacking and bouncing to the music that was way too loud. Pretty much a normal party, at least to me anyway.”

“After a couple of hours, the guys there had figured out that all the women were inside, and they started picking us off one by one to go out and dance. One guy had come up and asked me to dance a couple of times, but I was happy where I was and declined politely. By the time it was just Circe and me, he was back for a third try and I gave in. I hadn’t realized how buzzed I was until I had to walk out back to where everyone was dancing. He had to catch me twice before we even got to an open spot to dance. I thought that the physical activity of dancing would clear away the buzz I had, but it really didn’t. After two songs, he suggested we go back in and get some water, and I thought that was kind of sweet. We circled around the other dancers, and went into a different door of the house, then down some stairs. He told me this was just a different way in, and it’d be more quiet there. It was his room, and once inside he spun me around a couple of times, and flung me onto his bed. I was doing my best not to barf on his bed, wishing I was a lot closer to a bathroom, when I realized that he was pulling off my skirt and underwear. I told him to stop, I didn’t even know him and I wasn’t in the habit of sleeping with a guy I didn’t know. I remember him telling me that he couldn’t understand a thing I was saying. I have no idea if that was true, or just a clever disclaimer he used to keep doing what he wanted to. I know I passed out for some amount of time, because when I woke up, I was upstairs on the couch. I could hear Circe’s voice near me, and I tried to call out to her, but I was still in bad shape. When I woke up again, I was still on that couch, but I was a lot more sober, and a lot more aware of what had happened. I sat up and instantly felt the soreness in my crotch, I yelped and that woke Circe who asked what was up. When I told her that I thought that guy raped me, she asked me if I was sure! Then she told me about how drunk I was, and asked me again if I was ‘really sure it was rape?’. I know she didn’t really deserve it, but I started screaming at the top of my lungs at her. I know I woke up everyone in the place because they mostly all started to appear in doorways or stairwells. I got embarrassed when I saw them all, and just grabbed my things and ran back to my dorm room. I had no idea what to do, and I was pissed off at myself for having felt embarrassed and running away from where it had happened. I needed time to think, and because I felt gross, I decided that I could clear my head in the shower. Mistake number one.” She said.

“In the shower I had decided to call the campus police and report what had happened. About thirty minutes after I called, an officer was at my door to take a report. She was kind of cool at first, just listening and making short notes as I talked. Yes, I had been drinking; No, I didn’t know his full name; Yes, I knew where he lived; and then ‘You haven’t bathed since the incident have you?’ Fuck. I guess I hadn’t watched enough cop shows as a kid to know any better. I washed away just about all the proof I had that I was raped. The cop just shook her head and told me that we should go to the hospital anyway for a rape kit. That was humiliation number one.”

“To bring this part to a close, I’ll just say that the only saving grace was that he must have been drunk too, and forgot to wear a condom – they were able to get DNA from what he left in me. He was arrested, a magistrate listened to both sides, and offered him a plea deal of simple assault. He served no time, and didn’t even have to register as a sex offender. That’s the end of the story if it were one you were watching on TV, but since this is real life, it was only chapter one in an ever evolving novel.”

“That one night, I lost so much of what had been my normal life, I couldn’t have even imagined it then. I lost my trust Jack, that simple human quality we have to just trust other people initially. That was all gone, poof! Janet would never just up-front trust anyone ever again, not even other women. How fucked up is that huh? Something that most people take for granted, I bet most barely even think about it. But I do, every single day. You’ve probably imagined meeting a women, maybe in a bar, having a couple of drinks with her, hopping she likes you enough for it to turn into something. Well, that’s never going to be me, ever. Now, every man that shows interest in me, is an instant suspect. Having your trust taken away from you is like being on-guard all the time, and it’s exhausting Jack. My mind is on alert 24/7 and sometimes I forget to relax for days at a time. I’m like a tensed muscle just waiting to spring into action, and 99% of the time it’s all for naught.”

“Well, definitely in the couple of years just after it happened, I was absolutely sure that I needed to be hyper-vigilant just to protect myself from harm. Everyone was a potential attacker, either physically or mentally, but all were suspects. Even with an excellent therapist it was going to take me about five years to own, accept and forgive all of the things I was blaming myself for. See, Jack, that’s another thing that happens when a person has all of their sense of control stripped away – we blame ourselves for it. We bludgeon ourselves with ‘whys’ – why did I go there? Why did I drink so much? Why did I agree to dance with the fucker? So many demanding questions put to myself over and over, hell a hardline prosecutor couldn’t have done any better. All because my own personal control was ripped away from me, violently.”

“You were blaming yourself for being raped?” Jack asked cautiously.

“Absolutely. Think about it, don’t you have an internal sense of being able to control things in your life? Don’t you have a plan in your mind if someone were to try and rob you, or steal your wallet? We all have that Jack, I don’t think a person could function in daily life if they didn’t have some feeling of control. But it’s an illusion for the most part, because so many things can happen to us that we have zero control over. Zero. That’s a pretty tough thing to try and come to terms with, a scary thing if you think about it too much. Even after all of that therapy, I still couldn’t give up on it. I needed, hell, I still need – to believe that I have some control over a few things in my life. Sadly, one of the ways I exercise that control is by keeping people out of my inner space. My mind, my heart, my emotional space were all things I could control without a doubt. It wasn’t until I met you Jack, that I started to realize just how isolated I was.” She said.

“Well, I’m not sure what I did, but I’m glad I did it.” Jack said with a gentle smile.

“You were, well, you are just being you. You’re one of those rare people who’s just comfortable in their own skin. You don’t analyze people, or judge them for superficial crap either. You just seem to let each person you know write their own biography in your mind. To you, everyone is just who they appear to be until they show you something different. That’s a pretty great quality Jack, I hope you never lose it. But, even when we first met, I was guarded and distrusting. I can’t promise you that I’ll ever get past being like that Jack.” She says, tears coming now.

“Do you mean overall, with everyone? Then, no, you probably won’t. But, with selected people that you’ve come to know pretty well, I think you already have. Don’t sell yourself short like that, you’ve come a long way. Sure, it took me a long time to get to know you, but I sensed that you were worth it. If you were 100% guarded, I don’t think I could have sensed anything, except hostility maybe. All I’m saying is that you’ve found a way to reveal little glimpses of yourself to people that you want to trust, and we see it. I saw it, and I liked it, and I knew I was going to be in it for the long run. Even if we just ended up being friends, I knew it’d be worth it.”

 

Race Riot

Posted: December 20, 2016 in Uncategorized

The city I currently live in announced that our new police chief “has already made history, because he’s Asian!” (The exclamation was actually in the voice of the news reader) As I heard that I couldn’t help but recalling a moment just under 8 years ago, when we were told the same thing about our new President. He was making history as the first black President of the US. History… wow. History making because they’re not white. 

I felt something like a mild depression overcome me just about then. The fact that it’s historical that a person of a non-white race was elected, promoted, nominated, etc… As the kids say, WTF?? In just my lifetime I have been witness to the civil rights movement, women’s liberation, the sexual revolution, and all of the LBGT triumphs & tragedies.  This is all great news for social progress, but it’s also an indicator of just how backward we’ve been; and in many cases still are. 

Our new President-Elect has been labeled as a racist (true, or untrue is still yet to be seen), or at least appealing to the groups in this country who admittiedly are. It just amazes me that even a portion of the civilized, educated, modern human beings of this time in history, are still racists. They don’t like people who aren’t white people. Un-fucking-believable! It really is, to me at least. I just can’t wrap my mind around the concept that people still hate others because of the color of their skin. It’s asinine, in my opinion. Asinine, ignorant and backwards; all in one. I doubt that those who do embrace racism realize how it reflects on them, that is instantly displays their unbelievable ignorance. 

Would it change them if they did realize that? I doubt it. If you can get comfortable with being a racist, then I imagine you think the rest of us are ‘commie sympathizers’ or something along those lines. Perhaps they think we’re all ignorant too, that we just can’t see the evils of those other races? Maybe they feel sorry for us, and believe that they’re eventually going to protect us from our own bleeding hearts? I cannot say with any conviction, because I don’t actually know any real, openly racist people. In an oddly scientific way, I think it might be interesting to meet one, have a dialogue with them… were that a possibility. 

Somehow I don’t see that dialogue remaining calm and civil for any extended period of time. Race discussions are like politics or religion as a topic, just not a good idea unless the conditions are nearly perfect. That means two rational people who can put their emotional passions in-check for the duration. That’s not an easy thing for most people, not even for me. Yet, I still think I’d like that to happen someday. I have a notion that it wouldn’t be terribly difficult to poke a whole bunch of holes into their theories. Beliefs based on stereotypes and lies are not very hard to debate into submission, assuming that both sides can remain good natured. 

Judging other people based upon how they look, where they’re from, or who they worship, is so backwards, we might as well be living in caves still. We don’t deserve all of this technology, or creature comforts – not until we shed those ugly social maladies. 

Body Slam

Posted: August 1, 2016 in Uncategorized

Jesus David, men can be so ignorant sometimes. You just don’t get it do you? If you’re always looking at other women with big breasts, and especially if you comment on them, it’s a trigger for insecurity! Can’t you stop for a minute and think about how you’d feel if I was always pointing out guys who look like they have large penises? What if I said things like ‘wow, I sure love a big-ol penis and I think he’s got one right there’ ? It’s a not-so-subtle way of saying that someone has some physical feature that you like better than the person you’re with. 
Why does it seem more acceptable for you to gawk and comment on other women’s bodies than it does for me to do the same with men? I think all people in relationships want to believe that their partner sees them as more than some physical characteristic. Furthermore, no one wants to be compared to some stranger you see on the street.

You know you’d get pissed if I did the exact same thing you’re doing, but for some reason you think you’re being cute. Well, here’s some news, you’re not. You’re being an objectifying sexist asshole David, and I’m not sure I can deal with it anymore. How will you ever be happy with who ever you’re with? We all age, we all change in time, and in ten years things won’t look like they do now. Are you just planning on trading me in in a few years? Just keep changing lovers every five years or so? 

This will be your albatross to bear David, and until you look inside yourself and figure this out, I don’t see how you’re going to ever be truly happy with anyone. 

To my friends who still do not seem to understand it (and yes, I still consider you all friends).  

Please understand that the people marching and chanting that Black Lives Matter are not saying that other lives don’t. We intrinsically know that every human life matters, it’s why murder is a capital crime. It is not intended to diminish the value of any other life, or lives. It simply illustrates that the black community feels under siege by those in power. That there seem to be far too many graphic examples of law enforcement choosing to use deadly force, specifically on black people, disproportionate to other races.  

To those that have said things like ‘why is it just black lives that matter?’ or ‘why is there a gay pride day and not a heterosexual day?’ I can assure you that the reasoning behind those sayings, or events, are well earned. Young white men do not seem to be under special surveillance by the authorities, nor do they typically worry about being pulled over for just being white. Straight people do not have a history of criminalization and abuse just for being heterosexual. Groups rise up and demand their right to equality, the right to coexist when they have had enough of discrimination and abuse. A great number of us in privileged classes see that, and choose to embrace their cause and welcome them.

I realize that it makes many of you uncomfortable to be called a ‘privileged class’ when you do not see yourselves that way. It’s not your fault for the most part. But, you could choose to take a new look at the way things are, and possibly see how they were arranged to be so. One can choose to see things through the eyes of another, and perhaps gain a fresh perspective. I can see the unearned privilege I possess almost every day. No one follows me through a department store to make sure I’m going to pay for the items I am carrying. I can say hello to a cop and get a nod or even a smile. Simply because my skin is the approved color, so I am not under instant suspicion. I am not sure what my life would be like if those things were different for me.

Those of us who join our friends and fellow citizens in protesting the unfair and often brutal treatment of any group of people, we truly believe in total equality. We will chant that Black Lives Matter because some in authority do not seem to agree with us. We will point out, and shout out each instance of discrimination and abuse that we find. But please understand this; we may be protesting police brutality and abuses by law enforcement, but we are not protesting ‘the police’ or law enforcement in general. We may vehemently protest bad cops, but we also embrace the good ones. Furthermore we are in no way advocates of less, or no law enforcement. Every modern society has created and funded the police, there will always be a need for them in our foreseeable future. Understand that one can be against police abuses, yet in favor of the police themselves.

Law enforcement officers that are an integrated part of the communities they police are a welcome and appreciated group amongst us. A police force that is representative of the population it serves is a good and necessary body. Laws, and their fair enforcement, are an important component of any civilized and peaceful society. That, in itself, is what we are protesting for. The just and fair application of laws, the fair treatment of all citizens regardless of their race, religion, gender, sexual preference, age or political beliefs are what we want.
It’s armies that have and fight enemies, police have and protect communities. 

Conversations with Omen XX

Posted: April 1, 2016 in Uncategorized

Can the souls on the other side hear, or read my thoughts Omen?

“The souls on this side generally cannot read your mind Thomas, but I can if I choose to. Other guides could also do the same if they had need to, but they generally do not. Even when it is only concerning myself and one of my students, I do so very cautiously.”

Woah, so you can get inside my head and know what I’m thinking whenever you want to?

“I believe you are simplifying things a bit, but what you are stating is essentially correct in fact. Please understand that I do not do so capriciously, but only under circumstances where I feel it is necessary. Furthermore, we are joined at the mind right now as we communicate presently. You are choosing to respond to me verbally, and you are also choosing to believe that I am doing the same, yet I am not. As I had mentioned in an earlier conversation, I am pure spirit, manifesting in a form that you can see and understand. I do not have a corporeal body, nor any true way of making vocal sounds. I am directing my thoughts into your mind, and you are choosing to see my mouth move to match what I am saying to you.”

Seriously? You’re using telepathy to talk to me? Wow, I am having a hard time understanding how I am the one who is making me see your mouth move, or how I can think I hear you when you’re making no actual sounds.

“The mind is a wonderful thing Thomas, quite capable of creating a reality that you are more comfortable with, as opposed to what seems more abstract. Your mind is hearing me in a manner of speaking, but not your ears. To further compensate for the oddness, your brain also sees my mouth moving as well. I assure you that if you could calm yourself mentally, quiet your mind and accept that what I am telling you is factual, you might see things as they actually are.”

You know, I think I’m totally okay with what my mind is doing right now. Maybe after some more time passes, and if we keep doing this, I’ll give that a shot and see what happens. But, besides you, other souls who are there can’t really do that, right?

“Yes Thomas, that is correct. Are you troubled by the idea that your mind can be read?”

I wouldn’t say troubled, but I have always wondered about it. Well, that’s not completely true, I started wondering about it after my mom passed away. I remember thinking about it just a couple of days after she passed, I had this feeling that she would suddenly know everything.

“Know everything? How do you mean that?”

It’s like she’d be able to look at my whole life, like seeing a documentary on the TV or something. She’d be able to not only see things about me she never could have, but also know all of my thoughts I’d ever had in my life.

“Then I am happy to be able to calm you concerning this, now that you know her soul could not read your thoughts. Yet, if she chose to, she could actually attend your life timeline from your past to present.”

Wait, what? She can review my life? She’d be able to watch me like a movie or something?

“Thomas, I am suddenly concerned about your obvious distress over this. Was there a particular event that you would prefer be forever hidden from all others? I believe we discussed the lack of judgement that those of us in the afterlife practice. I do believe that if she chose to attend your timeline, it would have been out of love for you. In addition, she would be seeing much of her own past as she did so.”

I don’t know, I am sure there are a few things I either did, or thought, that I wouldn’t want to be known. I mean, I also realize now that I am mixing my feelings about my real mother with the soul that was her – does that make sense?

“Yes Thomas, I do understand you. Indeed, the human woman who was your mother was probably better off not knowing your every thought or deed. This applies to the majority of human relationship connections, for to know the private thoughts of every other individual would be a serious burden. I believe that if you think about it for some time you will agree that humans have all manner of random thoughts that are sometimes difficult to understand even by the one who had them. The soul that was your mother, on the other hand, has a completely different perspective concerning your life. She had life goals to achieve throughout her time on earth, and a review of your lives together is a tool we use to measure the success of those goals.”

So, if she was looking over my life it was probably overall a review of her own entire life here?

“Yes, exactly right Thomas. The soul that was your mother in this lifetime of yours has been with you for a very long time. Some of your life goals were intertwined, but most were not. In any case though, that soul would not be reviewing your life together or yours alone, for any reasons involving judgement. There is only love here Thomas, only progress and growth – not negativity or judgement.”

That’s pretty amazing, I wish things here were more like that. I also probably should figure out why I am worrying about someone knowing my thoughts, or knowing too much about my past. It’s not like I’m some former serial killer or anything, but I can admit that I haven’t exactly been a boy scout my entire life either.

“Thomas, you are like every other soul on this planet; none are perfect, all are learning, and most will be back again to continue their journey. I believe that you tend to forget that you have already established yourself as something unique already. Just the fact that I am here with you now is a testament to your uniqueness. I also hope that you know, or will know, that I am with you at all times, you can call upon me whenever you feel the need.”

Um, yeah, that both helps, and it doesn’t too. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I really love our time together, you’ve taught me so much about things I’ve never even thought about before. But, there’s also something about never truly being alone that is kind of odd. I know some people would absolutely love the idea of never being alone, and I’m not completely sure that I don’t as well… It’s that ‘never’ part that gets to me I guess. Never alone, ever. It’s probably a silly human thing that I’ll get over soon, but I’d be lying if I didn’t at least acknowledge it.

“I do appreciate your candor and honesty Thomas.”

I just thought of one more thing, another of my ‘odd questions’ for you; when we talk about souls, or spirits, are those the terms you use there?

“No Thomas, they are not. I am not sure that there is a name, or a label for what we are here, at least not one that we all use collectively. We know who and what we are, and I suppose that is quite enough for us. I will take this opportunity to tell you that in all of the conversations we have had, I have always used terms that you are familiar with. I do appreciate that you have a desire to know the real meaning, or the actual term for things. Yet, you must remember that you are human, an American, and you speak and think in English. Clearly it would not do our communication any good for me to use terms you are unfamiliar with. It would be as if you met someone from a different country that does not speak your language, you would not understand very much of what they were trying to communicate to you. The same applies here, I very much want you to understand everything I am telling you, so I use the words and terminologies that are most familiar to you.”

I guess I must have known that on some level since you already told me that your last life here was as a Roman senator. You didn’t even speak English at all I bet.

“No, I did not. In fact, I never heard the language in any of my earthbound lives.”

Wow, that puts things into perspective for me. Your last life was before the Roman people discovered the English. That’s wild. Hey, what about people praying? I mean, I know it’s a religious thing, but not exclusively so; people pray directly to God, or to dead family members. Do you all somehow ‘hear’ those prayers?

“Praying, as you know it, is somewhat different than normal human thinking. As I said, I am able to read your thoughts, yet only do so when I feel it is necessary. What you call praying is more like a direct and intentional communication to another being. It is most often a very concentrated and repeated plea for something specific. If you were to do that, and be thinking of me, then my answer is yes, I certainly would receive your communication. The same would hold true with your former family members, providing the soul was here, and not living a bound-life somewhere.”

That’s actually pretty cool, I’m not sure I’ve actually done that, but it’s good to know I could send a direct thought to someone who’s passed on. But, what about the religious folks who pray to God, or even Gods plural? Who gets that kind of communication?

“I am not sure I can answer that particular question with any specificity that would satisfy you. The Pure Love does indeed receive communications directed to it, no matter the name one attaches. God, or Gods, even natural forces and obscure things are prayed to every minute, and all are received.”

I know this is harder to answer, but I’m curious; does praying help? I mean, do people get prayers answered? If I pray to the Pure Love to help a sick friend, does that ever happen?

“That is not actually a difficult answer Thomas, and I bet that you already know the answer yourself. Praying to anyone or anything will not change the course of a soul’s journey. If a soul has a life where they eventually contract some fatal condition, it will not be altered by appeals to the afterlife.”

But, sometimes it does seem to work – at least to us mere mortals anyway. I have read stories about when an entire church of people prays for another member’s recovery, and it’s worked.

“Thomas, I think you can already surmise that it is simply coincidence in those cases. The Pure Love does not reach out and reverse a fate for a soul in order to please others. That soul’s shortened life may be key to many other soul journeys of those affected by that passing.”

 

Conversations with Omen XIX

Posted: March 15, 2016 in Uncategorized

Omen, I know you’ve said that you can’t reveal the future to me, and I’m not exactly thinking that, but I was wondering if you could tell me about the most amazing place you’ve ever lived a life at?

“I am not being intentionally difficult when I tell you that the term ‘amazing’ is very subjective to the user of the word. Yet, I have known you in this life long enough to be able to have a good idea of what it is that you might think of as amazing. Recalling the final life I lived on this earth as a starting point, I can think of a very different place that I am fairly sure you would be amazed by. That amazement would only be felt by you if you were transported there as your current self, so you could experience the contrast with this life.”

I get it, if I were born into some super amazing place, I wouldn’t know the difference because that would be all I had ever experienced, right?

“Exactly, if one has never experienced pain, one cannot truly imagine what the relief from pain feels like. Given that you understand what I am saying, I can tell you some things about a life I lived in a place that I am sure will astound you. Please understand that in the physical sense it was a vastly different place than earth, both in the life forms there, and the natural environment. Where things were similar to your life here were in the social or communal senses. The beings there live together in large groups much like cities you are so familiar with. They have social structures, governments and various different cultures depending where you were on the planet.”

Do they look anything like we do here?

“Only in the most general sense, but let us not get into that now. Those are not the kind of differences that I wish to focus upon. In fact, let me approach this from a different angle altogether. I would like you to try and imagine some things that I will describe, and perhaps you can give me your opinion on them?”

Sure, that sounds easy enough. Go ahead.

“Can you imagine living in a society where there are no crimes committed whatsoever? A society where all of the beings respect all others as their complete and utter equals?”

Seriously? Wow, um, I mean no, I guess I can’t really imagine that being real, not here at least. No one ever doing anything bad or criminally wrong? That’s pretty hard to imagine ever happening on earth, not in my lifetime anyway.

“I am perfectly serious Thomas. I am also taking much liberty with the term ‘crimes’ since it encompasses a set of rules made by a specific society. I am speaking in the general sense though, but I am not limiting this to capital crimes either. I am speaking of all crimes, both large and small ones. There is such a place, and compared to life here, I know it sounds quite fantastic. In this place I speak of you could misplace something very valuable, even in a public space, and whomever found it would exhaust themselves attempting to return it to you. It was as if the idea was universally accepted that if something was not yours it had to be returned to the person it belonged to. No one there would have ever considered keeping something that was not their own.”

No way, I have to admit that’s pretty amazing. I really can’t imagine that ever happening here, not in a thousand years. I mean, I know there’s good people here, ones who would return a wallet they found, or a wedding ring, but that’s still pretty rare. And, if even a good person finds a wad of cash, well I think that’s damn hard to resist the temptation to just keep it.

“I agree completely Thomas, as things were not all that different during the time I last spent in an earthbound life. That is why I thought of this specific example, a culture so very different than your own that it is hard for you to imagine it.”

Everyone there was like that? I mean, weren’t there some misfits there? What about someone who just wanted to go against everything for no good reason – like an anarchist here?

“No Thomas, there simply were not any deviants there, not even one. In the particular society I am speaking of, they all took great pride in being like everyone else was. That is not to say that they were not individuals, they were not clones, nor did they all look alike either. They did have their individuality when it came to personal aspects, but socially they had very solidly shared universal values. No crimes committed, no violence, no harassments, no belittling or insulting, no inequality in any way. They were all quite supportive of each other, and all their knowledge was shared freely and gladly. There were no social hierarchies to contend with and very few civic ones either. Of the governmental and legal structures that they did have, all were designed to minimize any possible discriminations or inequalities.”

That’s pretty amazing, I’m really having a hard time imagining living in a place like that. I guess, like you said, if I was born into it I simply wouldn’t know any different. Damn, I kind of wish we would evolve towards something like that here. I’d love to live in a society that was crime free, violence free, and super equal. Seriously, I’m just enjoying the thought of being able to go wherever I would want to go and never fearing crime or violence.

“There is actually more to tell about this place if you’d like to hear it.”

Yeah, absolutely, please go on.

“They also hold very strong beliefs about helping their fellow citizens, and all participate in many different social enhancement programs. Furthermore all of that is done voluntarily simple in order to make their society function at the highest level.”

That’s really cool, all the people volunteering to help others – just because it’s the right thing to do. That’s just awesome, and it’s like the cherry on top of the sundae. But, I’m still back at the ‘no crime’ part in my mind. I can’t stop imagining how that would feel if it were true here. I mean it would reduce the fear level in any given city down to some level we’ve never known. Having zero fears about crime or violence, it just makes me so happy to fantasize about it. Please be absolutely serious with me now Omen, no one there ever goes nuts and kills other people?

“No Thomas, at least not for such a period of time than those alive there would remember. You have to realize something, they are brought up from their childhood hearing stories and folklore that involve no violence at all. No stories such as the ones here that contain violence justified by the outcome of the tale. No morality plays that feature it, no legends that embellish it in any way. They hear stories of good people doing good things for others, or living good lives just for the sake of happiness.”

Okay, even if I can absorb all of that, I still have to wonder about how it is that no one goes crazy there. Don’t they have mental illness? What about depression or even impulsive teenagers who do something dangerous and end up killing some people?

“To answer in specific would be time consuming, so rather let me say that I did not mean to indicate that there are not accidental deaths there, because there certainly are some. As for mental illness it is a bit more complicated and may not actually be comparable. What you refer to is a human condition that is somewhat unique to life here. A simple answer would be ‘no’ they do not have what you think of as mental illness there.”

That might be as amazing in itself as everything you’ve told me about that place so far. You were right about the choice of the place you have told me about, it really is pretty unbelievable. I hope I get to choose a life there someday, and I also hope that some tiny part of my life I’m living here stays in my memory so I can appreciate it all the more.

“That is quite a lot to hope for Thomas, but I do appreciate the wish you have.”

Do you think we will ever get to be like that here?

“I can not speculate on such things Thomas, so very much would have to change to make that a possibility on earth.